i'm nt happy
i'm nt happy still
life juz dun go my way
jie n ma dun understand me
i cried
cried till my eyes oso swollen le
yet i still dun get anything
is this a cryin marothon?
i dun believe it is
n i dun wish it to be too
why am i so weak
why cant i juz stand up n walk again
why i cant stand such little obstacles?
why
i juz cant get it
i've long searched for an answer
why i juz cant find back the high pride me
i rather be emtionless than to hav emotions
i'm nt in lov or anything
i dont hav the reason to be sad
yet i still tend to get sad
i juz dont understand
why juz cant the sadness devil leave me
many nights i hav lost my slp
i cant sleep
i dunno why
the past things juz flashed back
where is the 6allamanda?
i realy miss her
i dun wanna face those fakers tt i need to face
anymore
but it is nt my choice
first time i am gonna use the word hate
i hate those in my class
really
i cant find a true fren in it
i feel like transferrin sch
but i hav to start all over again
i wanan go ahs
but ma n jie says no
ma says tt frens r small matter
but she has no idea hw much they upsets me everyday
although i am nt gettin bullied or anything
but wad i am goin thru is worse than tt
am i really tt nice to cheat?
i dunno
but i noe smth
i hav been cheated lots of time
tt's all i know
