this mornin fell down durin pe
and had a big big wound
still bleedin nw(nw is 11.11 pm)
n pe lessons was at 8 plus
already bad luck enuff
hmt paper 2 was real bad...
ytd paper 1 oso bad lle
already nt happy...
had an arguement with ma n sister
my ma says tt i am better off dead
say i dun waste her money n fod anymore
she asked me to go die faster
my sister said i dun trust u
tt broke my heart
it really did
='(
the since small who i think is the best sis on earth
says tt she dun trust me
i juz cant accept tt
i really broke my heart
it really did
i juz cant stop cryin
my ma asked me to die
my sister says tt she dun trust me n nt
gonna care bout me anymore
='(
i am already stressed enough
i am scared
scared tt i cant score well
scared tt i cant bring proud to them
scared tt i will lose my sis face whn she wanna discuss my marks
with her classmates bout their siblings
i am afraid they wil be unhappy
i juz wanna relax
n i end up have arguement n u dun waste my money
n food...u to n die
and also i dun trust u
i am really stressed
maybe maybe i should juz listen to my ma n go die
i hav been really unhappy this yr
my frens were horrible
my results dropped
my mood juz cant get happy
even if i die no one will moarn
cuz wad i did for them was nt wad they want
they tot tt i didnt giv my best
but i really did
i will so squeezed in a corner
i juz wan a hug n let me cry all out
yet i cant
i cant do well in anything
ma is correct...i am better off dead
exam period i dun allow myself to be unhappy
cuz the sadness will be brought into my work
but today i juz cant stop myself
even my ma n sis said tt to me
i lost all hope
really...
If i ever had the courage,i wld really kill myself
N i can swear bout it
