using my sis laptop to blog nw
with my darlin dog , jojo on top of her table
next to me..always used to do tt when jojo is small
Jojo has been always there for me when i cried
she tries everything to make me smile
she let me hug when i cry lik hell
although she is bad at times but she is forever good
She is forever the baby of my heart =)
Its 19/12/05...everything has changed within this yr
he's got a gf nw..i've got my life nw
although my life isnt very great nw bt at least i am nt sad cuz of him
he made a bigger step than me in havin a gf faster than me
now i look back..i think our frenship or every relationship
isnt very important to him
if it was impt to him, he wldnt tell anyone our bgr
when he intended to break the next day
if it was impt to him then he wont choose to break up
on his bdae..tt exact day
if it was impt to him, he wont hide frm me so many things
if it was impt to him, he wld hav rmb my bdae
if it was impt to him, he wont let so many people know bout our past
when it has already been in the past
if it was impt to him , he wun say so much nt true things to me
if it was impt to him he wldnt ask me for patch when
he has no one n forget totally bout it when he found smone
From the moment we broke, he hurt our frenship
From the moment i knew more bout him, it cuz more damages
From every moment he tell me hw he lik girls, i feel digusted
So many girls within one yr..this even cuz more damges to our frenship
I rather i be lik beginnin of the yr when i still lik him
at least i was so blind to know he was so bad
But now oso nt bad.at least i saw thru him
He was the caused tt i turn such a pessimistic person
i dont blame him cuz i shld hav been more strong
then he wldnt hav the chance to hurt me
He was nvr sry or guilty..maybe he was but i feel he wasnt
he said sry many times but
Sry dont amend any pain or sadness i went thru
He dont owe me anything but i think i owe him smth
he treats me as very gd fren but i treat him as a fren
or maybe worse
All i have to say is sry to him..
It's totally ovr for us
