okay . i'm being very emotional today
and i hate this .
school was okay but not pipa prac .
the new pipa teacher obviously does not like me .
she just kept staring at me throughout the whole prac .
i know i learn things at a very slow rate
but i dont need her to despise me
i seriously miss my seniors . felt so weird without them
my mood was totally dampened by the pipa teacher
and the fact that my seniors will never come for pipa prac anymore
=[ .
on the way home,i was just staring into space .
cant believe i can be so affected by my seniors leaving the pipa group
before dinner, i broke a bowl
because i was stoning while walking
sometimes, i really dislike myself for being so emotional .
for weeks, i always wanted to puke before meals
eg . my reccess
i forever cant finish the food .
feelin so guilty for that
i cant play my pipa well . =[
damn it .
It's just me being inferior and emotional
