:'(...my life is so messed up...finally i am startin to hate it

why is everything so messed up?:'(................why...maybe i always ask why tt's why it is so messed up:(...all messed up:'(....results nt the results i expected n still fell greatly...family-mama everyday oso scold...wanna frget him oso cant...wad the heck:'(...frens all like dun like me...feel so left out...i thought it is gud to be in my own world without any him...i am so stressed up..:'(...i really dunno wad to do ler...i wanna fly..i dun wanna fly tt high as others but at least i wanna fly but i cant:'(..i juz cant...>_<...cryin once again became my hobby..even nw i also cryin...i feel so cropped up...no one understands me...hw could this be?...i dunno..i really dunno...i really wanna forget him...forget all my worries...but i juz cant...i juz cant:'(...i juz cant fly..i cant walk out of the tunnel...:(...buaiz....yvonne was here cryin...