long time...i am back but stil the same me

yo...it has been a long time tt i last posted a new post....the reason was actually i dun noe wad to put cuz i am feelin the same all along...till nw also...i finally found tt there is actually a very big gap between me n him although i still like him but i noe tt i like de is the old him tt i noe nt the him nw...cuz the old him i noe is nt the one i found out tt there is a big gap between us...well ytd was april fool's day n i got tricked thrice...hahaz...well nt i trick people yet people tricked me..hahaz...got sort of angry onli but rubbed it off within five min...hahaz...well i slacked the whole day woke up at 1pm...ate breakfast n lunch at 2 then started playin organ ...started off with yu jian then change to canon in D....hahaz...then went to watch qian nu you hun...till so late loh..hahaz...cuz vcd wad then i skipped to last edpisode in order to stop myself frm watchin continuously hahaz btw i watched before wad...erm didnt d much work...die le...hahz...nw rushin lit....haiz..why cant i juz forget him or even the old him?.....there is sure no possibility between us le n i also ddun wish tt he like me once again but why am i still likin him?...can anyone tell me?:'(