livin dead person here...noes nth except sadness

dead livin person is here...noes nth except sadness....i have been cheating myself all along n suddenly one day the truth came...it told be tt i have been cheatin myself n the truth led me into depression....wad happened to me?..hw could i let this happen to me..i dunno..i have no idea...:'(...cut my hair today short till cannot tie....sch so sickenin....at hm always is sadness...i wan to stop tis torturin..it is too tough for me to handle...i wanna slp..cuz onli slpin will allow me have no worries n the torturin...but it will be impossible...cheatin is smth very harmful to a person...first i did nt understand tis...now i finally understood it....haix...dead livin person was here...