waitin...waitin for myself to noe wad i wan

well today post is on the thoery of waitin..sm people wait to grw up..sm people wait cuz of promises..sm people wait juz for the sake of waitin..sm people wait for true lov..sm people wait for gud news....no matter wad, normally there is a reason behind this waitin...normally behind this waitin it will be trust n belive tt will make the person wait...majority when people wait i think they usually hope the endin would be smth goin their way...sm watin cam true....but nt all....the most silly thingy is to wait for luv in my mind...if tt person doesnt likes u..even u wait long long..ok even if he or she accepted u but tt will be becuz of grattitude towards u?..well i am oso nt sure for myself...like me i used to wait for my papa to cum back frm overseas everytime...i used to wait for smone...i used to wait for my psle results...everyone has to go thru waitin...it is juz short or long n it depends on hw u see it...if u can see it thru early tt tt smth is nt worth ur watin then gud...if nt bad....nw i am waitin for my siister to cum back frm thailand on wed..well tt is worth my waitin...>_<...duh..actually knowin wad u wan is smth very impt too...dun go on with life day by day livin juz for the sake of livin...it is gud to be in a dream land for a short period of time but nt always...bein in dream land or sadness too long time will make u have a habiit of bein in there...then u will natural down if u are too used to bein sad...well maybe it dun really applies to everyone..but this is accordin to my own life...there is 24 hrs a day...almost every single second u are doin smth..but have u ever tot tt u really need to do tt thing?...well i guess seldom people does tt unless the thing he or she is gonna do is very impt...one yr ago maybe u say u wan this thing but one yr later are u sure euu wan the same thing?....people change...i changed too...frm a happy go lucky, everything oso cheerful girl to a girl nw tt dun even noe wd she wans for herself...one yr or a little more ago this girl writin this post is strong, happy, yes she may be sad at times but she noes wad she wans, career minded, thinkin of hw to make her future betta than anione....but nw this girl has changed...she has changed to a soft hearted, weak(dunno why alot people say so juz write down), havin depressed everyday, dunno wad she wans for herself...wad this girl think i hw to get herself out of this as soon as possible but always fails...qy said tt this girl here has nt forgotten him..which this girl dun think so...even if cant forget oso cant forget the old him nt the him nw....so conclusion is forgotten...ssmtimes i really lke to be people in coma....although they are in coma but they noe wad is happenin around but dun care bout them..onli thing bad bout it is..they are a burden to the family...well..endin here....girl was here waitin to noe wad she wans